At One Point, I Did Shine…

I remember a time in my life - around 5 years old - when I wasn’t self conscious or insecure.  A time when I was just me and didn’t make any apologies for it. 

I was confident, outgoing and simply just enjoyed life - singing, playing and taking in the everyday moments of my existence. 

But then things changed. 

Over the years my beautiful light got snuffed out.

I was a sensitive little girl and I faced some experiences and  circumstances in my early life that made me feel really bad about myself.  

I can see now how I made the decision at a very young age to hide in the shadows - because it was safer there - others couldn’t see me or my “flaws” if I hid in the shadows.

If I Do & Achieve Then I’ll Be Good Enough…

I hid for many years but at the age of eighteen I faced a crossroads where I had enough.  I decided it was time to show the world that I was good enough.  So I set out to take-on all sorts of obstacles and achieve some significant things - in the hope that I’d find my significance through outward success. 

I never realized as I worked my butt off through business school, and dug my heels deeper into the corporate ladder, that I was unconsciously chanting the mantra: If I do and achieve, then, I'll be good enough…

Professionally, I was hell-bent and motivated on getting ahead. And I did. But even in my proudest moments of achievement, I was never fulfilled. I also never felt like I "fit" into the corporate mold because even though I achieved outward success, it never felt like enough.

Everyday I'd sit in traffic and look at others in their cars wondering if they were thinking what I was thinking: "There must be MORE to life than this."

I grappled with questions like:

• How could I crave more when I have so much to be thankful for?
• Why couldn't I just be happy with the way things are and not seek out more for my life and work?
• Why couldn't I just settle for a status quo existence?

Food, Unhealthy Relationships, Shopping. Never Enough!

These deeper questions left me feeling like I was missing some "secret chip" that everyone else possessed. Everyone else looked happy, why couldn't I? To feed the pain and the inner longing I went to outside sources to try and help me find the answers:

• Maybe a new car will do it - that made me feel better - for about a week.
• Maybe the “perfect relationship” will do it, nope that didn’t work.
• Maybe a daily dose of donut munchkins will be it - nah that didn't help either.
• Maybe a new outfit - ugh it doesn't fit - must be all the donuts!
• Maybe if I fill my bookshelves with books I'll never read that will do it - wrong!

I can see now as I've done my the all important, non-negotiable, "worth work" that I was looking to outside sources to give me a "quick-fix" to feed that inner starvation and longing for more. What I didn't realize was that starvation was an insatiable hunger that could only be fed by me and from me.

When I set-out to follow my inner heart's longing to coach other women and help them reveal and come into their greatness, I didn't realize I would become my own best student. I had no idea I held many unconscious beliefs that were holding me back.

After lots of soul searching, my core worth issue boiled down to one biggie: I'm not enough - and I don't believe I truly deserve everything I've always dreamed about.

Feeding That Inner Critic

See, I used to believe the voice in my head that told me: "hang-up the gloves," "it's not meant for you," "don't bother trying," "others can do it but you can't"- I used to believe this was my truth.

Boy was I wrong!

As I've delved deeper into my work, and used my own life experiences as a laboratory of sorts, I've learned that the inner critic who consistently shouts at me telling me I'm "not good enough," isn't all of who I am. It is a part of me, yes, but it isn't my Truth and it certainly isn't the part that will help me step-out into the spotlight and shine in my brilliance.

A Life Long Solution Not a Band-Aid!

My work is about life-long solutions - providing tools, resources, and guidance that you will have for life. Claiming your worth insists you make a decision to choose a life you consider worth living- an empowered life with no settling for anything less than what you truly deserve. Choosing to share your unique gifts and talents and making a difference on this planet, while experiencing inner peace and fulfillment. A life where you feel worthy of everything you desire.

I believe it's the most important, "worthwhile work" you can do.

And its "work" that doesn't have to be done alone - and it doesn't have to be painful or drudgery. I know from first-hand experience that it's imperative, as you step out of hiding, and discover what you're really made of, and what you're really here to do, to have the appropriate support in your life to help extract your True Self and help you continually believe in your Worth.

I'd love to learn more about you - and if the timing is right and you feel ready to reveal your True Self - we can chat about my comprehensive, Transformative Life-Style Programs where I help you discover not only who you really are, but who you were always meant to become..

To Your Worth,

 

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